Giuseppe Tartini - Lettere e documenti / Pisma in dokumenti / Letters and Documents - Volume / Knjiga / Volume II

308 cannot be sold nor sent to other places due to the present wars; and above all, I have a debt of two hundred ducats for them. I believed I would double the capital: I shall lose at least half of it. This is my present state, nor is there here another question, or subterfuge, or gripe. Please, therefore, do your sums correctly in your house, as I have enough to do for myself, and maybe more than you all, given my own unfavourable state. For after having lived a life that is most tiring, hard-working and stressful in this world, at the age of fifty-four (an age suited for starting to find peace) I should be exposed as the target of all of you in most important matters, capable of dragging me into the common ruin; with such a sensitive and tender disposition towards you all, as could not be any more so, but with a head that can think a lot more and a lot better than you all, such a thing reduces me, owing to the clash of head and heart, to violent miseries. And I tell you for sure that if such a life must continue any longer for me, I shall escape from these lands to go where you will never have any news about me. Finally, if everything bad that can happen to you were to happen, after my death and my wife’s death, you shall find a capital, small indeed, but secure and without quarrels. For if I, seduced by my heart and by you all, wished presently to attend to you and your needs with actions, in a short time both you and I would be destitute. One doesn’t need much brain (after such a series of events) to see and witness first-hand God’s judgements on your house and belongings. We would all be mad if we wanted to mix the rotten fruits with the good ones. In short, be convinced for once that I have my inflexible principles: may men judge as they wish, for nothing, nothing at all matters to me. God will judge us all, and will not make a mistake. Moreover, I wish wholeheartedly, and pray God to tend to you, help you and relieve you, and I remain with all my heart your most affectionate brother Giuseppe Tartini 53. Tartini to his brother Pietro in Piran Padua, 29 April 1746 I am sending you what was requested of me and necessary for my nephew, nor was it possible to obtain it more hastily, even though I immediately took action. Through a man of religion I have had the news about the present disputes passed on to His Excellency Signor Lorenzo Grimani, suggesting to him the bias that the opposing party receives from the protection of the most excellent household for obtaining the assignment; etc. I had him add further, that the opposing party does not have nor ever shall have any difficulty whatsoever in submitting its evident reasons to the very eyes